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Isoldeve (To Shake the Hand of Your Deepest Fear)

by To Be Gentle

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1.
Attachment 04:40
Words of ill infatuation looped in my head, oscillating into a din of pure sonic terror Signals of distress, noise and hell; an existence of hurt, burdened with the weight of the world Screams and the shrill voice of anxiety pierce into the confines of my mind, splitting my skull with the most abrasive thoughts. For the first time, I know what fear is Boundaries abandoned Dive into the wreck Hyper-extended: My spirit and my mind Are not sound Catharsis and purgation Are my only options to survive This attachment will kill me Every day I’m left to decide whether or not I will concede to the confines of my mind
2.
I am what I always was: joyous and gleaming with the light of a thousand shimmering suns, Leaving an ardent warmth in my wake I give labor to my happiness, and all emotions from within Stagnation and it’s romance with my mind Remind me one day I will die and be a memory For this world to look back on and cherish One day I will tear through the blackness of doubt and coexist with joy and peace: I can be happy I am what I always was Joyous and gleaming With the light of a thousand suns
3.
(Instrumental)
4.
Impulses 04:25
Dog-tired in August Left two twins Bitter on the concourse Bright light and heat Bounced off your glasses Trauma spent on a life’s worth of mistakes I’d rather peel my eyes open with a can-opener of perpetuated trauma All I have is you and that is ok Because no one likes to be alone Here in this realm of sin we are just impulses They run through my head and tell me that I am just flesh and blood They run through my head and tell me that I am just bone and dream Flesh and blood, bone and dream Of a time when we were safe I can hear your voice but I can’t see you I can hear your words but I cannot embrace you here, and all my apologies mean nothing when I can’t be there Dream of a time when we were safe Make it our home, wish for that day
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Nina P 02:00
I am here, and you are there Yet it's like, I've known you my whole life I won't let them hurt you anymore This is the sound of love I won't let them hurt you anymore

about

This is a collection of songs that were originally intended to be released under a different project than to be gentle. With my recent transition, as well as a slight change in musical direction, I wanted to release something that was truly personal and intimate to me. That project is Isoldeve, combining the two names I was considering during the early stages of my transition.

Songs 1 and 2 will be on an upcoming 4-way split 12". Song 1 is featured on the new ZBR "zampler".
Song 3 was released as a single to the full length album, "I Love You, But I Will Not Forgive You".
Song 4 will be released on the full length LP, "Wounded".

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released August 28, 2021

All music by Eve Beeker. Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Eve Beeker in her apartment November 2020 - June 2021.

Cover and design by Becca Salcedo (@fleshcrucifixphotos)

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