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spring day blue as youthful tears 2004 2015 a soft crystalline river, soft to touch, soft crying eyes and soft whimpering voice alone in such a small place in such a big way hoping for your sophia hand i want to be mid 2000s spring day of a delicate soft sun as burning as our perfect smiles perfectly dreaming and playing in the grass green as the coloring mind bright as youthful feminine laughter i want to be this happy and be beyond time beyond tolerance and brimming in purity i hold a little light in between my hands as you fly i wish upon your fluttering magic let me find the angelic touch and please be happy please be happy please be happy damian i want to be happy
Bring me to the water You are not to blame I love you and I am sorry Castles in the sky are bound to fall one day But they won't rob me of my joy I will protect myself, this child within me There is a forgiveness I am yearning for But I understand if I never hear it We will eventually let go of this pain that we carry This is the sound of a love unprecedented Bring me to the water I love you and I am sorry


Ataraxy is the first collaboration between atmospheric black metal act Sadness and experimental screamo/post-rock band To Be Gentle. Together, they weave an eclectic blend of black metal, screamo, emo, ambient, noise, and even elements of shoegaze from time-to-time.
The project proves to be a monumental milestone in each artist's respective catalogues, as well as a powerful offering that beautifully converges the conventional tenants of black metal and screamo, while simultaneously crafting a multi-faceted, genre-defying sonic universe and expanding it outward. Sadness and To Be Gentle take the foundation and frameworks of each other's sound and build them, ultimately, into a pure catharsis.


released September 24, 2021

"be happy" written, recorded, and produced by Sadness.
"We Will Eventually Let Go" written, recorded, and mixed by Eve Beeker. Mastered by Will Killingsworth at Dead Air Studios.
Art by Derek Setzer.



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